I always sit down and think, who are the people that are true, those that will stay and be here, through happy/sad times with me. I selected a few in my mind but i hv no confidence at all to hold the friendship true and strong. I always hv no confidence in most things. be it myself, friendships, relationship or anything else.. because of having no self confidence at all, i always start to screw things up and decided to push the blame to others and push all the people around me to their limits. Am i a very difficult person to deal with? The closer you are to me, the more i lean towards you, the more i show you the uglier side of me, the more you see the weaker side of me and the more you cant stand me. I expect a lot from the people i am closer to. I expect them to see me above the rest, expect them to be there whenever i need them. expect them to listen to me even though ive repeated a thousands times before. expect them to answer my call whenever i want to talk to somebody. Although i've so many flaws, i know you all are still here and hv alrd overlooked every single flaw that i have. You see, i expect so much, which is why they have all the reasons to walk out of my life. I have typed one whole chunk of words and no one may understand what i'm trying to say, but its okay. and i'm still okay, still standing firm on the ground, not letting myself fall this time round. but..............i rly cannot take it anymore. can someone just talk to me??? please..