"It’s sad really. People rust. they evaporate. They slowly erase. And we wonder what happened. Was it our fault or theirs? Did we neglect the friendship or did they no longer need what we had to give? The boys, the girls. One day their names will begin with, ‘you know, what’s her name.’ It’s tough when you realize that the nurture of relationships is constantly evolving, despite every attempt you make to make it last. To live in love. To freeze people in memory. The rest of life will be a continuous series of beginnings, of handshakes and text avoidance."

— Christopher Gutierrez (via quotedocument)

Not a full and proper first post of 2012, but brb! i will be back to tell you why ive been away this while

Hullo ah

Ive been pretty much quiet, what i meant was the blogging manner, because ive been sleeping so early on weekdays like 11+ i will usually feel tired. staying up to keep up with this space of mine at 12midnight is something rare to me. anyway, life has been more or less stable and i can finally say i'm back to a normal and carefree and happy girl now.

oh and my boyfriend just enlisted and i miss him quite bad actually, very worried for him too. idk if i should say internship would be good for me now because at least i keep myself occupied on weekdays whilst he's in army so i wouldn be worrying so much and keep thinking about him?

and here are pictures from all over, from zouk, from topshop breakfast private event w alcinda, from alcinda's birthday

this happened a couple of weeks ago, alcinda and i actually were quite enthu about the event we woke up for it?!?!?! it was quite a disappointment it was all about some nylon debuting in sgp shit ok i dont give a fuck i only go there for freebies. YES I AM AUTHENTIC AUNTIE

and below are pix from alcinda's birthday, a very simple yet hearty dinner w everyone at chinatown!

then we headed over to BAR BAR BLACK SHEEP

and zouk.... ages ago i think lol

all of these pictures are on my facebook so its nothing new anyway.

so ive been hanging around w my favourite bunch of people week in week out, keeping things the way i want it to be.

afterall, live life happily is the most important right?

gonna update this space i think almost everyday wna start documenting every single thing down that happens in my life :)

You know there are a lot of things that you have to get by, and keep telling yourself that it'll pass when life throws everything at you. And no matter what things are thrown at you, you still hv to stand up and walk, and carry on walking. The road ahead seems tough, but it'll reach the end someday somehow. Everything will come to the end and you'll get through it someday. I hv issue with almost everything and now i see, the problem most probably should be just on me, myself. And what i think its good now would be a character reflection for myself. People around me start to get worried for my character building. This has proven that i'm the issue. And i'm the one with problem

I always sit down and think, who are the people that are true, those that will stay and be here, through happy/sad times with me. I selected a few in my mind but i hv no confidence at all to hold the friendship true and strong. I always hv no confidence in most things. be it myself, friendships, relationship or anything else.. because of having no self confidence at all, i always start to screw things up and decided to push the blame to others and push all the people around me to their limits. Am i a very difficult person to deal with? The closer you are to me, the more i lean towards you, the more i show you the uglier side of me, the more you see the weaker side of me and the more you cant stand me. I expect a lot from the people i am closer to. I expect them to see me above the rest, expect them to be there whenever i need them. expect them to listen to me even though ive repeated a thousands times before. expect them to answer my call whenever i want to talk to somebody. Although i've so many flaws, i know you all are still here and hv alrd overlooked every single flaw that i have. You see, i expect so much, which is why they have all the reasons to walk out of my life. I have typed one whole chunk of words and no one may understand what i'm trying to say, but its okay. and i'm still okay, still standing firm on the ground, not letting myself fall this time round. but..............i rly cannot take it anymore. can someone just talk to me??? please..

#newphone #newlife #newme #happyme

The happiest thing that actually happened this week was I bought my phone!!!! and my happiness level reached its peak. I don't know whats with blogger but i couldn't remove the underline shit and i hope that you all don't hv too huge a problem trying to figure out what i'm typing here.

and as i promised, here are the pictures from the flbflea, which was probably two/three saturdays ago. It wasn't a considerably good flea, bc i thought the crowd was bad but it was still relatively fun as my beloved baobeis are all there, even felix came down!!!! so glad to see almost everyone.

dear alcinda ;)

so after the flea, we went to hv xlbs!!!

and dear ryan

i like this picture cuz they both look so sweet here right

see, me v engrossed w my food

then pretty gergerx Eunice being v nice came down to look for me and Coco at the flea too!

also, the army boiboi botak liaox

dear ah grenn

and finally, dear coco

the pix below are from idk which wednesday which i went town to find them after work, a very simple wednesday

okiiii hope y'all enjoyed the photos, i still hv a few batches of photos to upload still.

gudbai

Hallooo everyone! Quite surprised that i will come back here again, that is bc there's someone who actually commented on my formspring "why so long never blog" makes me feel that there's actually people who bother about my life so i shall update here. My 6 mths internship has started, and it has been going on for about a month or so, its boring for me everyday bc im doing the same old thing, repeating the same cycle every single day, but i'm okay with it. getting used to this, and honestly, im quite happy bec at least i'm doing something everyday....? like it this way, life is so simple for me. I don't dare to say that i'm happy again at first bec i thought i'd jinx myself but i'm rly rly happy bc all my loved ones are here, so close to my heart now. lets keep it this way.......

#lifeisgood

anyway here are the pix before my internship started which means probably a month plus back? a night at zouk w the girlsss and neverland after that. pix are all from different cameras~~

i look so retarded here ;( anyw on that night we actually ordered like 40 shots and i tried kiss of death almost got me killed zzz

then the guys also quite vain ah, kept asking me to help them to take fotos for them

so glad... everything is going so slow and simple

i'll update again sometime this week the #flbflea and more!